I know many people are not even interested.. many people don´t even care.. but i am still
going to tell you something about my past. Well first of all, my name is Kadenza Sato. I am not sure why my parents named me that. But i have got used to my name after all these years.
When i was little my parents often beat me and tortured me after i had done something
wrong. And some of the times, they just beat me for fun. So my childhood was not really
happy. I often spend time crying in my room, wondering why i wasn´t loved like all the
Well then, years passed, i went from school to school because the other kids teased me so much. They were often calling me "pineapple head" or something else as stupid, always
because of my unusual hair style that my mother made me. I hated the kids because of that,
but i also knew it would be impossible to me to have friends.
After i grew up and started to look more like i man, i decided this couldn´t continue
anymore and ran away from home. It was hard because my father was always looking after me
but I managed somehow. I started to live in the streets because I was too afraid of the
other people because of what had been done to me. The nights were cold and there was always rain, but it didn´t really bother me, my body tempature is lower than normal and my skin is almost always cold and I really love water.
But I knew this is not how I wanted to live either. It was so lonely. Even when i was
afraid of people, I couldn´t stand to be alone. So then i found out about a school that
had all kid of creatures studying there, not humans. Since my bad memories were with humans,I thought maybe others wouldn´t have been as mean. Oh and of course i am not a human either, I am necromancer.
When i walked to the school, I was honestly afraid. Would they like me? would they
tease me? All these questions were running inside my head. But soon I found out it was
actually nice being in there. At first some persons called me "heartbreaker" or something
like that. I quess I didn´t really know how to act around others. But then it happened. I
found this girl I fell in love with. And after some time she told me she loved me too. I
couldn´t believe it, I felt so happy! Though the time that i spend with her.. it felt like
something was still missing.
After weeks passed, came the day when my heart was broken for the first time. The girl
i was dating told me that she loved some other guy more than me and wanted to be with him. I showed her my fake smile and told it was ok, but inside me, I could feel something break. After that it was hard for me to be round people again.. hard to trust them.
Time passed and my old friend came to the same school. I had actually had a small crush on her earlier and now I felt it coming back. But I was still hurt from what happened earlier and couldn´t really get close to her, so I decided to run away from the school.
Well then I came here... in this hotel that is full of good looking guys. I had met a
guy called Saburo and we were together. I still felt there was something missing when I
was with him. And I knew he was having sex with other guys behind my back. It really hurt me but i couldn´t say anything about it to him. I think i actually scared him a little.
Some time passed and then I realized it was time to let my brother, Zess go. I actually had my twin brother living in the same body as mine. He took control of me when I got angry. I wanted to finally live on my own and give him his own body so I went hunting. We chose a body that he liked and then I made him leave my body and go to that one. At first it felt a bit weird and I found out that my brother was actually in love with me. I didn´t know how to react and just avoided him.
Suddenly on one day I found out that he had found a partner. Small boy called Nobuyuki.
I remembered I had saved the boy once earlier and helped him out. He seemed like a nice one, though he was a bit sad and not sure about his role in this world... just like me. And on one day my brother asked if I could adopt the boy because the one who was his father now, was dangerous. Well I decided to say yes to help my brother. I didn´t really like the idea. I wanted my child to be chosen carefully and now I suddenly had to adopt someone I didn´t really know. And Nobuyuki said I was going to be his father only in paper, he wouldn´t think me as his real father. It hurt me a little but I acted that was just the thing i wanted. Anyway soon my brother and him really fell in love and started more like dating and even got married.
In the same time, my own live had gotten complicated. I met this other guy Kazuhiko.. he
controlled my mind and made me think I was dating him, not Saburo. I even had sex with him. When i found out about the truth I was shocked and felt bad of what I had done. But soon realized I really had gotten feelings for this new guy and ended up leaving Saburo and started dating Kazuhiko. It all happened so quickly and i didn´t really understand what was going on.
Soon I fell in love with him and started getting used to living with him. In the same time Zess and Nobuyuki found a demon kid that they started thinking as their own son. so they became closer again. I felt like I didn´t really belong anywhere. Even when I had a man that I loved.
Then something happened. I had a fight with Nobuyuki and I told him how I always wanted to have kids. Not just on paper, but a real deal. I quess he felt pity for me since he hugged me, but soon I realized it was not just that. And after that fight we started being more close to each other, spending time with each other. I actually started enjoying being with him. In the same time I got engaged to Kazuhiko.
Aften time passed, I realized I had fallen in love with Nobuyuki. I couldn´t believe it,
it felt so wrong, I didn´t want to hurt Kazuhiko´s feelings. Nobuyuki then realized there
was something wrong, and he kept asking me untill I confessed him. I thought he would start hating me and not wanting to be with me anymore. But it was the opposite. And it didn´t take long, before he told me, he loved me too. Now I was really confused, I was in love with two guys in the same time. And was close to getting married. Nobuyuki was already married and he was also my son! What was i thinking.
Soon me and Kazuhiko adopted two kids. They seemed nice and were a bit loners so we wanted to help them. I grew to like them fast and wanted to protect them. Younger one is called Diablo, and the older one Aoki. I had the live I always wanted. Kids and a partner who loved me, this still didn´t feel enough for me...
I got attacked by my father every now and then and often was in hospital, soon I decided
this couldn´t continue anymore. So me and Nobuyuki went to fight him. This was going to be
the last day my father would bother me or my family.
We found him quickly and started fighting, it didn´t seem like a normal fight though, my
father kept saying some weird stuff about our past and we decided to find out what it was. We couldn´t believe it, my father had taken away our memories about each other. When me and Nobuyuki were little we met and I fell in love with him. I tried to do anything i could to protect him and tried to run away with him but my father found us and made us forget. They also had put us in a machine than made us so alike. Our minds were the same, just like two sides of the same person.
Anyway we had to kill my father before we could think about it more and Nobuyuki held him down and sucked his blood when I attached his soul to his body so he would finally be gone forever. Then I hit his heart with my weapon and we left.
We were both so confused, I could feel my love towards the smaller boy to grow with these memories. The empty feeling i had had. I didn´t have it around Nobuyuki. Maybe he was the chosen one for me? But what could I do.. I was engaged to Kazuhiko and we had kids. And I also loved him really much, I didn´t want to break his heart. Nobuyuki was married to Zess and loved him really much.. we were in difficult situation.. If we chose to be together, we would have broken Zess´s and Kazuhiko´s heart and maybe broke our family apart. If we chose to stay with Zess and Kazuhiko, how could we act around each other? I couldn´t just spend time with him like normally, it would feel awkward. And i knew I also had to tell Kazuhiko, he would propably leave me if he knew how much I loved Nobuyuki and I would have ended up being alone... which way to choose, which heart to break?